Life without music in unimaginable. To me and 99% of the human race, music is an inseparable, indispensable part of life. Who created music for the first time, I know not. But I sure can say,that moment changed the course of life forever.
As a kid, I was very passionate and keen to learn all I could. From pottery to sport to dramatics to art to slokas ; I just wanted to do all I could. Learning carnatic classical music happened like one of those things. I knew I wanted to be able to sing well and that I had a decent acumen for it. As i grew, I learnt the importance of pursuing interests and that those interests had to be fewer than what I had. It was without any thought or effort that I pursued badminton with keen interest. Music tagged along.
Saxophones and trumpets all the way!
Then came the phase when I had to fore go all my cravings to achieve academic goals. Two years stretched to three as i found it extremely difficult to detach myself from my old self that was very high on entropy, not ready to shut it all up inside a shell. I was at conflict with myself. Music was silently there all through.
Violins and drums played sorrowful tunes and revolting beats in alternation
I was relieved when i knew i had made it into BITS. More than the joy of achieving what i had set out to, it gave me the hope of going back to what i was. It was liberating. I felt free to do all i wanted to..all that i yearned for for three long years. This feeling of liberty turned into panic when I realized I wasn't being able to get out the the shell I had forced myself into. I could hear my conscience stopping me at every step, making me think I can not and should not do it, and eventually ruling over that little part of myself that was struggling to survive. Still, nothing stopped me from singing to myself.
I sang, yes
I still wonder what it was that made me curb all my inhibitions and audition for the Music Club. I was still struggling to get to terms with what was going on inside me.I was troubled I couldn't find myself. I was lost. Music found me,again.
Soothing flutes and harmonicas gave me bliss
Its been two years since I rediscovered myself. I now know I have always wanted to be like this, to think like this, to live like this. I wake up to the alarm chiming, I sing as I bathe, I hear birds chirping and children singing their prayers as I cycle to classes, I hear a static in my head when I cant make out what the teacher's trying to prove, I yearn to hear the siren to go back for lunch, I doze off as I hear the distant old classic from a wingie's room, I wake up to the ring of my cell phone, I hum my way to the music club.
Then on, I am inside my temple, following my faith.
orchestra!
